Is This Thing On?

Hi, and welcome to my first blog post on this site. There’s so much to come and I am super excited to be able to share my life journey on my own website! My name is Kurtis Sawyer, I am a self titled Illustrator and Creative. I am here because I am exploring what these words can look like for me.

So, more about me; I draw, I paint, I write, I read and I craft… Oh and I love going on meditative walks to contemplate things. I also notoriously love sharing my opinions on stuff that interests me (as my friends will attest!). I hope to use this platform that I am making for myself to learn, grow and heal. I want to also be an activist but I am on my journey of learning what that looks like for me. I am currently, also, on the precipice of this new journey I call learning, growing, failing: in which I do as the title states in order to figure out what works for me. As someone who often appeases those around them in order to fit in, I am learning more about what it could mean to be loudly and proudly myself… I hope to share all my opinions on here about what I am reading, what I am making, what I am pondering and what I am yearning for.

I am kind of an itty-bitty creator at the moment. I have had dreams of getting my work out there and trying to do something meaningful with it (not sure in what this means just yet), but as someone who has admittedly a lot of self-doubt and insecurities it has been hard. I am working on overcoming this; actually, I am actively in the midst of doing that, and I am quite proud of myself as it stands. I have always let myself be pushed around by societal scripts and expectations of me (based on identities that I hold), so I have never actually had the chance to step back and ask myself what it is I really want. I am hoping that maybe even a small part of doing that is putting myself out there more… Or at least I am trying. I know this probably sounds weird as a 25, almost 26-year-old, but I am in a limbo stage where I have no clue where or what I want to be, and I am privileged enough to have this opportunity to experiment. I stand here at the precipice of something new with insecurely small expectations of this app (to be completely honest), and I hope that if I can’t reach hundreds, I can maybe reach one person who needs to hear what I have to say. I hope that’s you. Thanks for taking the time to read this.

Note: This is all written and edited by myself… I am not a professional writer and I have dyslexia so please be kind!

Signing off grateful,

Kurtis Sawyer

they/them

Other places you can catch up with me: Instagram, Bluesky and Ko-fi.